I’m giving up (for now)

I just can’t seem to get any momentum with my life as unstructured as it has been of late, and I can’t seem to impose the right amount of structure onto myself either. Whatever this says about me and my will power/maturity/self-control, I can’t seem to stick to any kind of dieting/eating plan/exercise regimen while I’m not working. I need that framework of external structure on me to force me into patterns of better living.

I wish things were different.

But hopefully soon I’ll be employed and can start this whole thing over again — hopefully for a last time that will really stick.